Being Strong

I have talked a lot about my life and how things have changed me, different events make me think differently about different situations. I never thought me saying something to someone would help change their life though. I guess it never dawned on me that I was that important to help another, Or that they would listen to me. I was in WalMart when we first moved here about 6 months ago, and there was a parent who was completely out of control. I had been walking behind them for a while seemed we were going to the same places. Her daughter was just being so good she was standing next to her mom and hadn't said much. Then her mother didn't like the way the girl had done her hair. (it was in a pony tail.) She started going off about her daughters hair and I could tell the poor girl was so embarrassed and the look of fear came into her eyes. Her mother raised her hand as though she was going to slap the child. I grabbed that woman's hand so fast. It was a reaction I didn't even process what I was doing how I moved that quickly until long after. I told the little girl, " No one ever has the right to touch you or hurt you out of anger I want you to tell your teachers, your principal your relatives and keep telling them until they listen when ever your mother does these things to you again." She looked at me with a soft smile. She said my mom and dad are with the Angels this is my CPS case worker. I let the woman's hand go and by then a security guard had come over I told him what had happened and the woman said it was fine she just wanted to leave. The man standing there looked at me and asked what I saw I told him and he called the police. The woman was arrested because the girl had bruises all over her body from her foster home and many she said came from the CPS worker. The girl then came over to me and said," I don't think I would have ever said anything to those police men had you not told me that. I have been scared for so long. Thank you for helping me." I told her she was welcome and she asked me about my story how I knew no one should touch a child like that. I shared a kid edited version with her and gave her my info in case she ever needed someone to talk to. Well I got an email from her the other day and she is doing really great. The security guard at Walmart and his wife are her foster parents now and there trying to adopt her. They even took her to therapy and are all learning how to take care of each other as well as Parenting classes. The girl told me Thank You for her new life her new good life." Her new foster father added " I really love people who have a passion to change the world and stand up for people no matter what the price could be." 

I share this because we do effect each other. Much like that movie pay it forward everyone touches another life, Wether it be that woman you cut off, The man you steal from or the one hello and smile you give. Everyones lives are separate but connected. In a time of so so much evil that seems to intoxicate our world, Sharing love, patience  kindness and truth are the best way to change this and turn it all around. There will still be evil and people will still be harmed but if we all just stop and stand up for one another we all might get through it a little less destroyed. Everyday in the US 5 children die from child abuse 1825 children a year die from being beaten and neglected to death. Mostly because they are to scared to say anything. My little bit of encouragement I believe saved that girls life. Always try to remember that pointing fingers is easy blaming someone else is even easier but looking at yourself is hard and sadly it starts with each of us. Think about who you effect and try and make this new year a year of love and happiness all tied with positivity and HOPE that our leaders will adapt these ideals as well and our country will change for the better. Merry Christmas Everyone! 

The Waves of Life

This is a Portuguese Maneuver resting upon the sand of that flipper. Well it is probably dyeing because it is not in water but that is life right we float out of the water and rest on the sand when we are tired and then a wave comes in and says " that's enough rest lets go drown some more." I think there are times I look at life that way. who am I kidding all of us have days where we are dyeing on the sand and constantly being pulled in and rushed out by the waves of life. 

My child hood was not a beautiful one but it created a beautiful person. Christmas always was my hardest holiday. If I made it through my birthday sits right after the New Year and I could breath for a few months not struggling from the pain of the past or the regrets of the mistakes. Overcoming all of these things the past year has really helped me to like myself and love myself. I finally have started writing again. A hobby that all to long ago was covered by loss in confidence. I continue my work on my BA with less hesitation and more joy and I love my husband and children family and friends just a little more. See when one does not like oneself they cannot find the beauty in others. They may slug around and bring others down because they are jealous of the happiness they feel constantly waiting for the happiness to fade and them to be on the same level of fear, anger and sadness as oneself is. This past year working on myself I fear I may have been that person at many points in my life but I refuse to let regret eat me alive any longer. My soul is no longer consumed by pain, anger and hatred. I am finally at peace with the world and the balance of life. On top of all of this I have lost 42 lbs. It was like once the pain started healing the weight started lifting. My 2012 was a very challenging year but it was so rewarding all the same. 

I told you I would write about some of the great books I have read and why I loved them so much. I am currently int he middle of about four series and I can't get enough but with three kids the reading is a bit slower these days. 
Lauren Kate's Fallen Series is Amazing, very well written and breathtaking with surprise. 
Aprilynn Pike's Wings Series brings you to a world you never thought existed and makes Fairy's much cooler then I ever thought they were before. 
Carrie Jones' Need series makes me want to be a pixie. It is very well written and epic.
PC and Kristen Cast, The House of Night Series is a good series I got a little burnt out after Burned but I heard there will be 13 books total I hope there is something new and surprising coming soon.
I love the Eragon series and am so excited to read the final book that only the last chapter was written by the famous Author and his heir wrote the rest. 
I did read the first book of Fifty Shades of Grey I was not a fan. 
I love Nicholas Spraks books I read Safe Haven and The Lucky Ones. Both great reads.
Kerissa and I read The Dork Diaries I have big plans for Middle grade books for her this year. Big Big plans.
I am kind of a sucker for SciFi and Paranormal Romance. 
This year I plan to branch out a bit and read more Middle Grade novels as well as Adult. 
I first will be finishing up my series I am in the middle of and starting Anne Rice, The Vampire Chronicles. Then I have met so many debut authors on twitter that I will be reading all of there books as well. I will keep you posted about once a month I will write about a new book I have read. 

For now Have a very happy week and look at life as though you are being pulled into adventure and rushed out for a rest but quickly drawn back into the waves of life, fun, love and Happiness. 

Cupcakes...

Went to LA to visit one of my best friends this weekend, and I had to find out what all the guff was about at Georgetown Cupcakes. These cupcakes were amazingly good and beautiful. The gluten free and vegan ones were amazing as well they melted in your mouth. My kids loved that I brought them home some as well. Now this week is a big week I am working full force on preparing my Manuscript for pitch wars I have the beging polished but the middle and end are not. Two days and lots to finish up. I will be burning the candle at both ends this week. Happy Monday everyone!! 

Rough days

I think that every person finds a day or two that can be challenging especially with children.  This morning was that for me. In this life we call writing there are so many opportunities that come up and each one is epic in different ways. I am trying to get my SyFy with a hint of romance, betrayal, surprises  and friendships. Polished up for Pitch wars. I am so excited but it brings on a new level of stress as well. My daughter just started K12 online which makes me her teacher she doesn't always like to do her work and today the tears ran red in my mind. Then little super baby climbs on table spills water on school books... Lastly little star boy pukes on me. not glamourous to say the least. I really thought I may pull ever strand of my hair out. When my daughter hands me my math book and says," Look mom I did your home work for you." She drew me a picture on the back cover of her and I smiling. I couldn't help but smile and be reminded at the same time that I also have math homework due today. Sometimes though it is ok to breath and put everything aside and just try to enjoy the happiness in everything. My daughter is strong willed, My super baby will be able to get out of any obstacle and my sick star boy felt pain on his own for the first time today. He is Autistic and has never given me much of a reaction when it comes to pain. Now I have a pretty picture to help me smile when I am cramming numbers for this five week math class. All in all it wasn't such a bad morning. Now to finish math homework and polish more of my manuscript. Happy Thursday Everyone! 

Mira

In my Novel I have named my main character after the star Mira. 

Today I finished my Philosophy class and am 14 classes away from my degree. It makes me smile. Funny how life moves us and forces us into places we never realized were there. I know one day I will write a book about my life right now though I am enjoying my fictional world on a different planet with Mira and her friends. I think we create our own destiny what ever destiny is any ways. I started with wanting to be a photo journalist, changed my degree to journalism from there I was thinking lawyer and then I got passionate about education. All of my paperwork to change my degree kept getting lost and then I started writing about mermaids. Some day I will finish that story some day but it lead me to Mira and her amazing story. I am glad my degree program never changed and I am loving the idea of having a BA in journalism and going for a masters in Creative writing!! Just look at how bright and beautiful that star is. I hope she rubs off and helps you find your dreams! I am working on my Pitch wars submission editing and editing and editing loving it all the while holding on to a smile! Happy Monday everyone bring on Tuesday!! 

Mondays that make you smile ;)

I think everyone feels the Monday blues. It is a fact of life I suppose. If it was named something else would it be more tolerable, is the question? What if we called it Brightday? No probably not. Last Monday I got a super awesome epiphany... Which makes me hope this Monday comes with more!
I had this idea for the beginning of every chapter in my book, to start with a quote about philosophy of the universe or stars in general. I think each one will have meaning to that chapter it is starting, and will help the reader think a little harder about the symbolism in the words that they are reading, hopefully flying through the book because you can't put it down. We will see...
I found this picture I wanted to share with all of you:

Isn't that just so sad... 

This is my last week of philosophy class. It is hard when everything is so religion this religion that, but I try to not focus on the religious side, and more on all of the other million things philosophy decides. My classmates tell me its refreshing. I always ask why they don't try to look at a different point for there discussions but few respond. We will see if this week my ideas will rub off and I can read the post without the anxiety that comes with it LOL.... Happy Monday TTYL this week!

Friday 16, 2012

This is my inspiration for the book I am writing. It is a Quasar also known as a black hole. I love this story and I hope once it is finished you will as well. 

Not going to spoil anything but I will say that Breaking Dawn Part 2 was the best of the five films. They did a great job and totally left it open. I think the actors really put it all out there and would love to see more. Sadly Stephenie Meyer said she is finished with Vampiers for now and on to other things. 

There is a new series being filmed The Mortal Instruments: City Of Bones will be out next summer and I keep seeing everyone say its going to be better than Twilight. I get the franchise rivalry but just know Stephenie Meyer her self gave a fab review that is on the box of the gift set of the series. 

It's friday I would love to hear about your week and what you thought of Breaking Dawn part 2 without spoilers also check out , Insomnia Cover reveal by JR Johansson supper awesome. Have a great weekend! 

Twitter

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Happy Thursday

Sorry about the length I will keep them shorter from now on  just want to introduce myself.

I am Keri. Yes I love to write. It all started with a small book in first grade about a puffin with one fin. I now realize it was a wing but I was in first grade. I illustrated and wrote this six page book. I got to pick out what I think was sticker backed wall paper for the cover and I sewed it together with orange string. I felt so happy and I knew at that moment I wanted to write books and become President of the United States. As I got older I never lost my love for writing but I did struggle. In fifth grade I was diagnosed with sever dyslexia. A therapist told me my dreams of being a writer probably were slim to non at that point. I remember I looked at her with tears in my eyes and shouted " You don't know me very well I over come hurdles not become them" She laughed. Glad my dad never took me back there again. I think every one has a back story and most are not glamourous mine falls in that same category. Divorced parents evil step mother, abandonment and rejection issues, lots of abuse. When I think about my past though I try to think about the bad things with a positive twist. I am who I am and I am on the journey I want to be on because of those horrid things. I learned to over come my dyslexia. Sometimes it gets the best of me but that is what re reading a thousand times is for. Now I am in college for a BA in journalism I have three amazing children. A son with Autism  he sees the world in ways I could never have thought to see it. When he was diagnosed we were told not to expect to much. He may never walk, never be potty trained, never talk and probably will not be able to write.Well he is four now and guess what he can do all of those things better than me some days lol. Our daughter is just a joy she lights up a room when she walks in. At age two she suffered from sever PTSD from her fathers deployment I learned a lot about military children and PTSD at that point and I started helping speak out for them to try to help parents understand. Some reason though I learned parents don't like to think there is any thing wrong with their child. In turn the child suffers more. I still advocate about PTSD and military deployments and life stress on children but it is a disappointing road and causes me to lose mild faith in man kind. Then I have my baby boy he isn't so baby now he is one and a half but super adorable and keeps all of us on our toes. My husband of almost seven years is in the Marine corps. We have gone through two deployments and several months of training. Moved from california to hawaii and back to california and we love our country. In our marriage we have spent three years apart... Guess that is the life. Now I am writing my first novel that I plan to publish. I have a couple poems on Peotry.com under Keri Dinkins you have to look in the archives they are from about ten years ago. Very happy to meet you all!! Happy Thursday remember to smile the universe loves you...