Truth, Hope and Love

I absolutely love writing and without it I would swim in voices of people that may be factious but are as every bit as real once they hit the paper. Words make them come alive. If you think back to the first book you read that touched you. Wether it be Cat in The Hat By Dr. Seuss or Motorcycle Mouse By Beverly Cleary you began a connection to someones idea and made a factitious friend. To me I know my characters better than my self, some say their characters are a part of them and create them to become someone they wish they could be.
 I have many characters and stories I am working on but my focus is a novel about a young girl who must overcome pain and betrayal to save her new world of friends and the foundation of which she was born. It is full of magic and reality and through it all she is human but not at the same time. I am building a new world one that will bring magic and hope alive and more powerful than the darkness that is coming. 
I also recently finished reading for a second time The Fault In our Stars By John Green. I have heard great things about the movie and I plan to take a bag of tissues with me. If you have not read it but have wanted to I recommend you do. If you have then Okay is my Always :)
I have a million books to read but my eye is on the final Mortal Instrument book By Cassandra Clare, that comes out this month. 
Life for me right now is always a busy time. With my kids in school and us preparing for yet another military move the end of the year chores have built to added piles of fun. I find calmness in the memes and positive quotes that I engulf my facebook feed with. I have found in my life that hope and love out way fear and sadness. Truth will set one free it also can change ones views of the world, choosing the negative or positive is the way one looks upon it. I always find the positives and try to seek goodness out of all things evil. I ponder often what life means and I think what keeps us going is Truth, love and hope. Which makes summer all the more renewing and exciting. I love getting to spend time with my kids and show them new things. During the school year we get caught in the schedules and routines of the weeks and months. Durning the summer we keep a routine but we add spontaneousness and excitement. With lots of reading and traveling through books not just by vehicle. 
I wish you all a Happy Mothers Day and hope that in your lives truth and love will create a happy and fun outlook toward the summer months. 

Smile 

KSPD

Selfish is The Key to Selfless

I was born to stand out and raised to fit in. For many years I have fought what I was born to do and tried to conform to societies sickest ideals. In the past month I have learned a lot about myself and that is never easy. I know now that I am strong, smart, dedicated, and courageous. Those are not bad traits to have but in our society they force us to stand out of the box. When you feel suffocated in life for so long it is freeing to realize you have broken out. I am writing again which is good I lost that part of my day because it got filled with kids this and husband that, both of which are important but I am important too. I think we go through life with this idea that we need to be selfless all of the time its "what good people do" so to speak. I have learned that you can't be that selfless person when you want to be if you are not thinking of yourself every once in a while. My lesson has come at a heavy cost and I hope I can spare you all the pain that has absorbed my life because of it. There is a balance between selfless and selfish and even if that word doesn't make society happy it is needed. 
Now I am working on a new novel and finishing up a couple old projects I can't wait to be doing final edits but that goal is a ways out. 
Happy Friday everyone I hope your reading something amazing and will share in the comment box below... 

A day in my life

When I read I feel and see everything like a movie. When I write I am writing the movie I am seeing but it is harder because you have to word everything right. Like if the sky is grey and you never describe it the reader will see sunny skies. Writing is challenging but for me it is an amazing journey. I may not be the fastest nor the best but I am learning. I know their are people out there who sat down wrote a for a few days and had a best seller. I am just not one of those people I suppose. I take time with my characters. I let them build amazing worlds, friends, families, failures and triumphs in my mind. Then I have to process that to my computer. 
My biggest challenge is wanting to be epic already and knowing I am a long way from that line. It isn't because my characters are not talking to me all the time nor because I have nothing to write about. It is because I have a beautiful life that takes every extra moment out of my hands. Most people have kids who can do everything themselves, never argue and can see the maybe's in life. I don't have that and I am married to a Marine who's day by day changes at a seconds notice. My three beautiful and amazingly awesome kiddios are special needs. One of you asked about how I mange this, how do I get anything done. Well I wake up at 4am and I prepare for the day. I start with coffee and then picking up anything that is lying around. From there I get them all dressed this is a hard task it takes about 25 minutes. As soon as they finish this I feed them breakfast. We don't often have eggs or pancakes its usually cereal or toast with some fruit and juice or water. I don't have time for elaborate. From there I open my daycare and we begin the rounds of getting to three different schools and managing our behavior. While I am working it is fun my youngest enjoys the projects and the learning. by the time nap comes it is time to pick everything up again and get paperwork in order. When it ends it is a couple hours of buses and school pick ups. A little time for homework and then its dinner, baths, story time, and bed. I have about an hour of energy at that point which I spend with my husband. So you see there isn't a lot of time for writing because if I take time to sit down and do it the world falls apart and the house becomes a crazed animal. I keep trying though and I keep a small note book of ideas and thoughts. I plan to start joining Friday night writers club and add an hour to my weekly college time for writing. 
There is something beautiful in every moment with my family though. I get to hear their happiness and comfort their fears. As a parent we give up so much of our selves and though I get lost in that I always know that I wouldn't change a thing for the world. 
I hope you all can find what is important and be okay with the little time for yourself so you can enjoy the big moments with your family because they are born and 18 in a blink of an eye. 

Courage

Have you ever pondered what holds us back from something we want so bad and comes so easy for
others to do? Many philosophers concur that fear is the biggest chain of regret. When people are scared
they hide from themselves, what they are capable of. In the end it catches up to you and all you have is regrets because life doesn't stand still it is for ever moving and passing you by. Well this past year and a half has flown by me. I think I have come out with more regrets than I can count and all because I was scared and let the fear control me. Life will not always be easy and things will happen to change how we react to certain situations. These are not road blocks though they are just logic that is built into our brain. That means you can listen but always remember that the situation is never exactly the same and you have to try another way to suppress the fear with courage. This relates to my writing life, I tried and failed to myself and to others I didn't meet the bar. Then I get a story that operates in my mind all of the time and I find I have lunged into research and a feeling like I got this. Maybe my story about a girl from Planet Beid was a beginning and the five other projects I have going. I never felt this drive with any of them like I do my new piece. I am very excited to get through the outlining and the research to just start writing. Life has a funny way of showing us what it really wants us to do. I am pretty excited!

Short and Sweet

I keep writing and working my way toward my dreams but in that I also do a lot of other things. Especially since it is the Holidays. We have snow flakes hanging from the ceiling, lights dangle in the windows and along the roof top and the Christmas tree is a very loyal charlie brown fake tree. The Shopping and crafting has been a lot of fun and now the wrapping seems endless. I have still found time to read a little and work on editing my Manuscript not as much as I would like but hey it is something. I wish you all A Very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year may 2014 be a wonderful year! 

Works in Progress

Currently I am working on four different books. I know its crazy. One is about something I don't know what yet it is just developing. One is about aliens and young life, one is about a vampier and warlocks daughter. and the last one is about the odd life of a young girl who takes the supernatural and goes with it. Juggling writing, kids, husband, house and work can be exhausting so I added college to it just to add another gallon of coffee into my week. I figure I will get this schedule down eventually. Until then I just do it all in small some times tiny strides.

Everything doesn't come in Black and White sometimes it comes in rainbow and I suppose that is how I live my life. I hope you all had a very Happy Thanksgiving and are gearing up for Christmas like we are. My very amazing children may each have a special Nook HD waiting for them Christmas morning. Let me know what your reading in the comments below :)

Roll with the punches

First off Happy Thursday,

I really have learned through out my life to roll with it and just keep going no matter what. There are moments though when everything hits you like a cement wall and digging your way past it with a spoon is the only option. I think it is important to find the good in it all like the fact that you have a spoon to dig with you could have to use your hands and yet you could be thankful you have hands. 

I didn't get selected for agent treat but I did get a couple people to read a bit of my Manuscript and they gave me some great feed back. I was diagnosed with Dyslexia when I was in 5th grade up until that point I had struggled through school it was amazing being able to write a sentence completely backwards but only I could read it. I never let my ability stop me though. I kept writing and I kept learning new ways to cope and push forward. I admired Harriet the Spy and the show Ghost Writer if you were a 90's kid you get this. I just wanted to get my stories out there. So when I got my feed back I realized I had so much dyslexia no wonder they didn't pick me. My brain completely reads  every sentence correctly and it adds or changes it as I read it for some reason my mind doesn't see the errors even though they are very much there. I am going to use the advice and corrections I was given and try really hard to not miss these errors that swarm my manuscript. I was told I have amazing voice and my story is really unique and fun. That is where I will be in my free time grinding out my manuscript and getting it ready for an editor. I shall try to see where I am at the end of November and enter it for a contest called pitchwars but if it isn't ready I may have to sit this one out and thats okay.

My NaNoWriMo is coming along I haven't kept the word count I would have liked but I plan on writing at night when I can and trying my best. 

As a military spouse things change all the time. One day were moving the next were staying. One day were going here the next there. My husband has off and then he doesn't it is just life. I had planned to go to Romantic Times in New Orleans in May. I was finally going to meet my amazing online writing friends and my favorite author Aprilynn Pike. I don't talk about my children much but they each have their own special gift and require a very strict schedule. Sometimes the smallest change can cause weeks worth of progress to disappear. When I made my plans my husband was taking the week off to ensure their schedules stayed the same. Well those have changed and he will now be in a school that he can not take leave out of. To say this sucks would be a light way to put it. I cried a little I had such high hopes and excitement. I try to find the good in this to but for right now it is just a soar subject. I am a pretty selfless person I give and give and give because I love with all my heart and in that I do not take much time for myself and the time I do take is usually filled with guilt for not being with my kids and husband. This maybe was the first time I was going to be selfish in the last 8 years but I guess there is always next year. 

Like I said in life you have to roll with the punches you have to be able to pick yourself back up no matter how much it hurts. There is something important and amazing in every one and it could mean the world to someone you may not even know if you just share it. 

Aprilynn Pike released a new cover for her new book to her Earthbound called Earthquake it is pretty cool looking!!! 

Have a good Weekend and remember our VETERANS and their families!!